We all have tendencies that aren’t ideal. I’ll share one of mine. Maybe it’ll help you think of yours.
I tend to spread myself too thin, to get super excited about too many ideas, and to end up in situations where I am trying to do more than is humanly possible. Unfortunately, the quality of what I can do begins to falter and I hate this. I want everything I do to be excellent. And when I lack preparation or clear intention or am less thorough, I get very disappointed. I don’t like the feeling of being spread thin. I feel less centered, less powerful. I don’t have time to simmer on things. I don’t have time to ruminate. I make poorer decisions because I don’t have time to feel into what is happening - and if I can’t feel things, I miss things. I miss the unspoken realities. I miss the truths people around me feel but aren’t expressing openly. I am a feeler. I need a certain amount of time to tune into that level of communication.
When I am spread too thin, I have a tell. There is a way that my subconscious mind communicates with my external reality: you can tell by my cuticles. When I am stressed or anxious, my hands are a mess. I don’t bite my nails or eat them. I get overcommitted to exfoliating my fingers and toes. I want to get rid of any dead skin until it hurts. It's a gnarly habit, but it is also useful information.
I have begun to do a self-search when this happens, to figure out what is making me anxious and chances are, I need to prune my life not my fingers. It is an indication that I have spread myself too thin and I need to curate, edit, prune, and choose the projects with the most heat, the most excitement, the most potential, and the most momentum. Things that can be shelved, should be shelved.
How to decide? I love them all. Some have more Yes coming back to them now. Some are working and some are continuing to cost without delivering.
What is a tendency of yours that tells you something about your deeper state of being?